2021, you’ve just started and already you’ve almost given me a heart attack. Already you’ve given me a whole night of drama. Already I’ve broken my pact.
Promising myself no more making new years resolutions out loud, I made a silent pact with myself to do something this year that would make a difference to how I saw myself.. It’s only been 3 days today, and already it has been broken. Already you have robbed me of something I really needed to do. My mind clearly states I wasn’t ready to start if it was broken so easily.
But that’s okay. We humans are resilient. We are strong. State of mind over matter. What matters now is changing my perception of how I see myself and of what my perspective should be. . .
My downfall before was I listened to what others thought of me. I thought they were right in their perception of who I was. Which wasn’t how I felt about me.
I was not being real to who I am. . I kept telling myself I shouldn’t worry what others thought of me. But I kept lying to myself, because I kept falling back into that same old pattern. That pattern that made what other people think more important than what really made me happy. Now I can see the difference as they really are.
But I didnt make that connection until recently.
Now I do still care, but I care a lot less than I did yesterday. As time goes by, I pray it matters less and less. Hopefully it will contribute to my doing better. Now that I’ve seen where my mistake was, I can make more changes inside me and around me.
Already I’m making changes. I am ready for more change.
I pray let this year be a year of change around the world. Not only individually, but collectively, as a people, as a citizen (in whatever country we at), and as a human being.
Absolute Happy New Year to each and everyone.
Be kind. Be nice. Be smart, and, above all, love one another.
Love always,
~ T 💕
MISCELLANEOUS MUCH 